Thursday, December 19, 2013

Are you Frickin’ Kidding Me?!?!?!



Many of you will recall a post from back in July wherein I detailed a traumatic experience where I was assaulted by a bug and then sexually harassed by an asshole. Well, it’s winter….so the bugs are excused, but apparently the assholes still roam free. Yes, you guessed it, the bus top masturbation harassment continues. This is #3 for me (if we really must keep count of something so disgusting).

I still DON’T GET IT!!!! Why would anyone want to do that? First of all, buddy….it’s freezing out….we know that nothing is going to be impressive in this temperature. Or actually, really first things first, what do you hope to achieve by this? All that I’ve been able to come up with is that these sickos desire to make someone feel uncomfortable and derive pleasure out of doing something so socially unacceptable. I’m just hoping to never be around for when one of these situations escalate into an actual assault. That’s the really disconcerting part about all of this. I tell this to people and they laugh, and rightly so because it’s so absurd that you kind of have to laugh, but at the same time it’s very concerning behaviour that can easily turn violent. How safe are we women really on TTC and Mi Way public transit?

In the end I do my due diligence and file a report, but beyond that there’s nothing anyone can do. And although there are cameras on all of the buses and at the main bus terminal, none of the bus stops have any type of surveillance. This is obviously too expensive to be an option, especially when these cameras would most certainly be vandalised anyway, but is there anything that can be put in place to keep our public transportation safe?

Another really concerning question, besides why on earth this keeps happening to me and what exactly it is about me that attracts this type of attention, is why there are so many creeps in this city! WHY???? Aside from sheer population and the law of averages, what exactly has occurred in these people’s lives or is occurring in their brains to make them act this way? And it’s not like these guys were intoxicated or mentally ill, although I guess the second might be open to speculation. These guys, however, were (as it appeared to me) fully functional adult males. Capable of having a drivers license and owning a car, capable of holding down a job, capable of knowing that what they were doing was wrong and that they needed to get out of there before the cops showed up. These are conscious acts, although they are spontaneous acts of opportunity, they are still thought through. So, to me, this isn’t a matter of a very unbalanced mentally ill person acting in a way that he is not conscious of and does not register as wrong. These men specifically went out of their way to seek me out and make me feel violated and uncomfortable. What is more, they never back away until they are sure that I have seen them. There is something in that aspect that they get a thrill out of. It’s probably because the moment when I finally realize what they are doing I am filled with rage and disgust, which is exactly what they’re going for. Why anyone would enjoy evoking that reaction in someone else is beyond me.

Well I guess I will never know why. I sure would like to know how I can avoid it though. If you guys have any suggestions please feel free to let me know. So far I have concluded it is because I look quite young and innocent, so perhaps I am a target that would be most shocked and appalled. But if this has anything to do with looking young then that is the most unsettling thing because that means that we have sex offenders who are strolling these streets looking for young girls.   

Anyway, this post really offers no insights, I just figured I would share because I’m so shocked that this is becoming such a regular occurrence in my life and I am very disgusted and just lament what humanity has come to. I also want to urge that please, if anyone experiences the same sort of thing DO file a report. I know it doesn’t really seem like anything can come out of it, but if enough reports are filed with the same sort of description, that’s a big step towards catching the guy when he does it again and is stupid enough to get caught.


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